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  1. Converge and Mastodon fans will be there to even out that ratio. Mastodon fans are pretty useless, too.
  2. I saw this show maybe 2 or 3 times and I guess I just dont get it. I think I changed the channel each time it was on. Maybe I'm missing something. It's like every other 15 minute show on Adult Swim...you have to pay attention from the beginning of the episode or else it's just obnoxious nonsense that doesn't seem to really make a lot of sense. That being said...the show is top notch...fans of the show...not so much, people that will be at these shows....probably even lower down that ladder.
  3. heard "Impossible Germany" by Wilco at Publix once. had a bartender turn on Quicksand's "Slip" once. That ruled. Wasn't really that kind of bar.
  4. don't buy anything from someone selling "vinyl"
  5. debaser is awesome. you guys are always good live, another solid set at significant fest last week. hope that wasn't too much of a bum out show.
  6. youre not hereee and i can never sleeeeep come home so i can be a creeeep. i dig.
  7. aw man. got the best care package ever from her today. it included: -new fred perry -mushroom pills that i couldn't find at the stores down here -home made vegan chocolate chip cookies -a shirt of hers for cuddling, aw so creepy -a couple of nice letter note things -stack of business cards things that she had made with various pictures of her/that she took -a plastic star of david ring (i get made fun of constantly for being a jew, also my name is david) -the coup de grâce: rubbing of hp lovecrafts headstone, i literally...cried when i unrolled this to see what it was. aw man, best best best. can't wait to get better and get home.
  8. also pretty into this idea. i'm sort of shitty about reading, so the sharing one copy thing works nice.
  9. i might be interested. i don't know what this stuff goes for and vonnegut is far from my favorite writer, but i figure that having a shitty cliche slaughterhouse five tattoo warrants that i should own a better copy of this than the one that i have.
  10. i've actually never been able to get into the dillinger four. i feel like putting that out here on this board might change the sentiments expressed towards me, hahaha. sorry!! i'll try again, it's been about 5 years since the last time.
  11. just an uh, update. after tomorrows treatment i will be halfway done - 6/12. dude's not sure about radiation treatment yet and i was basically told when i asked, "aside from the fact that i feel a lot better and the masses are gone...how do you know i'm getter better?" and i was basically told that he doesn't know and won't know for sure until we do another pet scan after the final chemo treatment and after that it's just a matter of time passing (2 yrs and 5 yrs are the big time frames that people usually get sick again) and that i basically just have to put faith into something, which i am NO good at at all. but i'm keeping positive, he told me that he's pretty confident that i'll be fine, and i feel like i'm going to be fine. i can't wait to get back to normality. i miss being able to do things, i miss my wife, whom with i am currently separated from until (at least) the chemotherapy part of my treatment is done with, i'm pretty sure i'm not sitting around another 6 weeks to get radiation in florida, when i can do that in rhode island just fine. anyway, i am doing some zines - at least 2 different ones, one will be totally cancer based and will (probably) contain most of what's on my blog + extra stuff that i'm not necessarily comfortable with my family/professors reading and the other will be just...other stuff. i don't fancy myself much of a writer at all - but i am accumulating hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of bills and i can't really just go into places with the economy the way it is and go, "hey i have cancer, i'll be unable to work 4 days every 2 weeks, and all my hair is falling out (which rules out food, which is probably where i'd have the most luck)" so i need to kinda try and keep myself afloat here. so when i finish them i'll post ordering info if any of you are interested. can't promise it'll be good, but i will try my absolute best to not disappoint.
  12. appreshed. we are currently separated by over 1000 miles right now. and it sucks. and i hate it a lot. we send each other packages a lot. and ichat video chatting helps. but going to sleep every single night without her sucks, a lot.
  13. Thanks for everything guys. Sleeping helped and waking up was hard - but things are better today, we all found out a little bit more about the situation, albeit not very much, still. It's just so hard to think that she was just...there for a week...we're all pretty sure that it was an accident, she didn't leave a note. Just hard to deal with on top of everything else. The past 3 Novembers I've lost family, I lost my dog in October, I lost another friend this past November - a few days after losing my grandmother, and got real sick with what turned out to be cancer around the same time. So...everything has been a real "WTF" lately and honestly I still don't believe it.
  14. Yesterday I learned that one of my best friends had passed. From the update tat we were all given it she had "apparently committed suicide" and that police/her mother were interested in speaking with anyone who had spoken to her in the last two weeks. Which leads me to believe that I may have been the last person who spoke to her, because her phone was going straight to voice mail for several days (my concept of time is really whack right now) and the last thing that she said to me - after she had just had what for her was a particularly bad day - was, "I'm going to get off the phone, take some sleeping piils, and going to bed." It's absolutely surreal and I do not want to believe it. The absolute lack of details and communication between her mother and her friends is really killing me. It is really hard for me to imagine that the situation was so bad this happened and that it seems that no one knew for nearly two weeks. I don't know what to do and I am sorry if I am bringing anyone down I am just so upset and confused.
  15. If I wasn't sick I'd hook you up because I have a huge room and we have lots of extra mattresses - but I can't :/
  16. wait... that is the one where they are gonna hang the dude at sunset, but sunset never comes. right? i think they do show that one in the marathons. They hang the dude and the rope breaks and he gets away and it's him like, getting away and living the rest of his life (its been like 10 years since ive seen it so the details of this are fuzzy except him running away) and anyway at the end it turns out that they really just hung him. Ambrose Bierce!
  17. also love this episode because it inspired one of the greatest Treehouse of Horror episodes ever.
  18. YES! that is the best one ever. im watching that one for sure. I hope they show Owl Creek, they usually don't - because it wasn't filmed for the twilight zone and it's so...not creepy. I also love the one where the baseball team makes the robot pitcher and then he grows a heart and can't throw strikes. that one is absolutely LOL. still scares the shit out of me. i also definitely act this way on airplanes.
  19. Nightmare at 20,000 Feet is on at 10:30! Love this one. Tied for my favorite episode with An Occurance At Owl Creek Bridge.
  20. just to clarify, oxycontin is the "good" part of percocets - while not entirely interchangeable - someone who wants a fix will get it either way from either one. the company that produces the brand oxycontin has started producing caplets with a gel center that hardens and becomes practically useless when crushed and mixes with oxygen. however, the internet being the great resource information that it is - i have seen people take this light blue hardened substance (similar consistency to dried craft glue) and turn it into a filthy looking black substance that can be injected and work the same way. this whole thing sort of fucks me off/effects me directly. my oncologist will not allow me to take tylenol or aspirin - the tylenol because of the effects on the liver that is already being compromised by the chemotherapy and the fact that it hides fevers (and at 100.5 i have to go to the hospital no matter what) and the aspirin because it messes with blood a lot and with what i've got that's sort of a problem. so he has resorted to giving me 5mg oxycontins, because, well that's all that's left at this point - at any rate, because the tight wad doctor who gives me shots 19 days a month that make my bones ache and the insurance company that does not have any compassion for human life what so ever, i am stuck with ~20 pills a month and basically just told to deal with it if i run out. meanwhile...at pain management "clinics" across the country, there are lines of junkies/dealers in the waiting rooms waiting to get their monthly prescription for 240+ 40-80 mg oxycontins. i don't disagree with them trying to "crack down" on irresponsible use and accidental deaths and all of that, but i would like the system to...work...for people who uh...for people who need it. love you, america.
  21. ive not, that i can recall, ever had morphine, i did get 1mg of dilaudid every 4 hours in the hospital the last time i was there and i have to take about 20-30mg of oxycontin (in 5 mg doses) to sustain myself til this wound heals. oc's feel good, but overall are bullshit. doing them one way is better than doing them another way but 1mg of dilaudid fucking trumps the larger doses of oc that ive had that way. i dont even like drugs, im just curious and i am fortunate enough to know when enough is enough.
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