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you guys would stop being my friends if i told you.

be glad it happened after you were separated and not while you were dating. playing second fiddle to dope sucks. i spent almost 6 months being begged and bitched at to hang out with my ex at her house a majority of the week, while i had a lot more important things to do at home, but i set them aside and fucked my schedule around to appease her. i frequently found myself coming back to reality after having zoned out from watching tv for hours and hours on end while laying in her bed waiting for her to come out of the bathroom, get into bed, and go to sleep (barring having to be up early in the morning - if i'm sharing a bed with a significant other, i'm going to go to sleep knowing that they're sleeping next to me, otherwise what's the point? where's the comfort?) - you never really know the definition of being alone until you are spending most of your time with someone and most of that time they are too pre-occupied with finding other means of feeling good to pay any attention to you at all. i don't know what the fuck i was thinking or why the fuck i kept up with it for so long. i've essentially lost any lingering interest i had in relationships and sex. relationships because i was treated like absolute garbage when i was acknowledged at all and sex because, well it's supposed to bring you closer together as people in a relationship and all that ever did was cause arguments because certain drugs entirely wreck the bodies ability to come and well dude...shooting dope is exponentially better than getting railed...there's no competition, so why bother? anyway dude, i'm sorry about this. i've been through it, it's garbage. but you can't let yourself hold yourself accountable or responsible for the choices she's going to make.

i need $10.

didnt even know. wont be there, though. unfortunately. masquerade is back open as the ritz, again. nothing too interesting has been there unless you like lady gaga, jesse mccartney, or sublime cover bands.

yes to both. It's a community center/space so I didn't imagine there would be tickets at all. Kyle, last summer when I went up there I stayed at a nice Comfort Inn in Pawtucket which is the town over/basically still Providence. It was way convenient too, even more than I imagined - the hotel was literally down the street from where the show I went to was at and I didn't realize that until a few days before. It's not that close to this venue but its definitely still a short driving distance. you could also stay at one of the 47 billion bed and breakfast's on the east side of providence or at the providence biltmore, which looks really nice, if you wanted to spend the money i think it'd probably be worth it. if you drink make sure you make a trip over to trinity, try their IPA, it is delicious. be forewarned: you will not remember anything the next morning, and it always used to make me prone to violence. fuck i miss providence. if i wasnt sick and i gave a shit more about verse/hadn't seen them in their prime id fly up and suggest that we organize a meet-up.

trying to be hp lovecraft...uhhh...

You live in the south and you prefer pepsi? What the fuck? Glass bottle coke rules, an almost icy cold canned coke rules, too. anything else is hardly acceptable.

he was also apparently only wearing a trench coat.

other than them calling me asking for money? nah. currently: my port got infected at some point, so when i went in for round 2 of chemo on monday i had to go to the hospital instead and have that bitch taken out. im still at the hospital but i feel great. trying to get outta here ASAP so i can return to some form of functional normality again.

As was eventually discovered and stated and dealt with for the most part over in this post from a few months ago. (http://vinylcollective.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=19451) I was recently diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma and am currently going through the treatment to get the fuck rid of it. Along with it to avoid having to explain things to my family and friends a million times I started a blog to post my progress/feelings/thoughts as a lot of the information online is just straight forward unforgiving medical information or how to deal with the chemotherapy and there is not a whole lot chronicling the general experience. At any rate, here is the link: http://aseasoninhell.tumblr.com in case any of you are interested in reading it at all or might know anyone who is. I feel like this may be the most important thing that I can do for myself/other people right now considering this extraordinary & unexpected direction my life has recently taken. Thanks. I really hope everyone here is doing very well, it's been a long time since I've participated actively and I apologise for my absence.

Dude, honestly, just having a fucking diagnosis and a treatment plan after 6 months of sitting around feeling shitty has made me feel so awesome. I am completely optimistic and hopefully as soon as the chemo port wound and the biopsy wound heal and I can take these bandages off and they don't cause pain, I will feel a lot better. They're basically telling me that as long as I don't feel too crappy from chemo that I'll be fine to go to school and carry on, and that's honestly been my biggest concern. So after my one-time-only hospitalization for the first cycle of chemo I should be able to continue. I've been so optimistic and positive, and the mass in my neck has actually reduced in size lately. So I'm hoping this all continues and the chemo won't fuck me up too bad. However, all my teachers have basically given me a free pass to do things at my own pace. I think all I need now is rest. I can't believe I feel so fucking positive right now, I never felt this positive when I was healthy.

I met with an oncologist on Monday and he ordered that I have a few tests done and a chemotherapy port implanted and told me that if it wasn't done by Wednesday I'd have to be admitted to the hospital today (my birthday, 21st to boot). His office wound up being able to get everything taken care of by today, had my tests, which included having a bone marrow biopsy (basically having a needle stuck in my ass bone, no fun) and had the port implanted today and rather than starting chemo this week/weekend and having to stick me in the hospital for a day or two to monitor my reaction, they've given me the next few days off to enjoy my birthday and I have to be admitted to the hospital for a day or two for the first cycle of chemo starting Monday and in 3-6 months and I have to have some radiation to break up the mass and after that I'll be fine. Thanks for the well wishes. I'm almost painfully optimistic about it, 6 months of waiting for an answer and treatment and now I'm basically just relieved to have one and be able to start fixing it.

So anyway, 3 biopsies later, they've determined that it's Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Total life bummer.

wow, it's been a while since i've been on this board. that was a week ago. shit is still fucked, and i am waiting to get a god damn referral for an infectious disease doctor. i've been eating a lot better lately, to see if that combats it, but it's only worked so well. most of the left side of my neck is swollen, and my throat is asymmetrical, and that's not cool. big monkey can you tell me anything by having this information/photograph? i mean, anything, i'm at a loss because i can only submit so many symptoms and get so many damn results. i've been getting fucked around by this for far too long. just want it over with. any thoughts are good.

all available to the highest bidder by saturday at midnight. paypal only. pm offers. help me save christmas. thanks. Rare, no longer made, Monkey Vs. Robot vinyl toys, can be sold individually, would really prefer to sell as a lot. Best offers. Company now known as Wunderland War Make Offers on these, please. I have 2 of these, they are size adult Medium, self-explanitory, no longer printed. Printed on Jerzees. $25ppd. Cobra Starship Boombox Hoodie, size S, printed on American Apparel, $25ppd. In print, but would cost you $45 after postage. I will do my best to get these to you by the holidays. Act fast! Thanks! and for good measure. cats.

thanks. i hope so. i went to the specialist today under the impression that i was having the biopsy, but now i have to wait til next thursday. and then an additional week after that to get results back from the pathology lab. has anyone been to the doctor lately and had them mention you cat scratch fever? three doctors have told me that's a big deal, and my mom has been told that as well, relating to her own illness which is not in any way similar to my own. i think they're all going insane.

i hope none of you ever plan on having wives or children.

Actresses, Zooey has been in Elf, Almost Famous, Yes Man, and is in the band She & Him. Hipsters love and adore her, and I just don't get it. Emily is the title role on the show, Bones, on Fox. Better for the reasons listed, picture links provided. Go crazy, I've seen quite a bit of talk about Zooey and her band on here. Figured I'd shake it up a bit.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emily_Deschanel http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&q=emily%20deschanel&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi

cause let's face it. better role, astronomically better tits, and zoey is just going to look like her in a few years anyway. she's also vegan, and has a bachelor's degree(zooey is a college drop out). there i said it.

Quoted for truth.

so this is still going on. it started october 7th, it's now practically december 1st. i have been to the doctor 3 times, i have a biopsy on wednesday with another doctor. i was treated with azithromycin about a month ago, it made the swelling go down and i started to feel better, but after i finished, i started to feel crappy again. i've had inconsistent nausea, fatigue, and soreness in my throat, but that has gotten really bad over the past 24 hours. now i just want to die. IN ADDITION TO THAT, since i last posted, my grandmother died (started acting weird 230am on a saturday night, died 230 am on election day), my friend was hit by a car on his bike and killed, and there was another death, too sensitive to post about. sweet life. hows that for an update!

You see what a unicameral government gets you? Fucking, nothing.

cool. i played this with porcell once, and my name is david. ceremony also sucks.

it definitely FEELS like a publicity stunt. Idk, maybe everyone else thought this band was a big let down from what it was hyped to be, too and so few people bought the record...i don't know. I can't imagine this being the one institution that would care about infringing upon their name, especially with all of the other bands that have done similar things in the past.