sonsofvipers

i miss home so much.

 

its still there, just, im not. even when living in boston some days an 1hr and 30minutes felt too far. its more than just driving down and visiting. i really fucking miss it. ever since my car accident, everyday i think about how short life is and how quickly shit can change. i wanna be with my brother and my parents.

 

living in texas now for work. some days i almost cant take it. and just wanna quit and get the hell out of this shit state. when i first moved here, i bought the same aftershave my dad uses. i dont use it, just once in awhile i pop the top off and smell it. just reminds me so much of being home. 

 

i went to the zoo yesterday and i all could think about was going with my parents. like i would never think to do that, but thats all i wanted to do. 

I feel you. Not exactly the same situation, but Im from New York and go to school in Oregon for 9 months out of the year. Even though I  love it in Oregon, there are days or weeks where I'll miss home like hell and want to be back in New York and see my family and old friends. Familiarity is comforting.

So last summer, I spend the a week at my cousin's house, during said week He, his friends, and I went camping out on this girl's private lake. So I hung out with this cute girl a lot, (really adorable had a cute country accent, was shy, innocent, and just really sweet) anyway we spent a good amount of time together so I developed a slight crush on her. There were about 8 or 9 of us total across 3 tents, and there was this on guy, who I rode in a car with, and shared a tent with, and my god was he the biggest douche I'd ever met. He would only talk about football, and sleeping around, and hunting, and theses shoe. These fucking shoes, ugly, purple custom jordon's ,he was so proud of i think he said they cost him $300. Anyway all of walked back up to the house after fireworks and me and this cute girl were chilling and sharing a bottle of some expensive ass vanilla vodka the host had gotten for us. Now I saw expensive, because the house was expensive and she had so much liquor, she even said "My parent won't notice they own a liquor store" anyways the house was lovely and large and expensive. She had asked us to take off our shoes in order to keep the carpet nice so all of us compiled, and all of the shoes were at the door. So anyways me and this girl had joked about her being my first kiss and all and she said "tonight I promise you will be kissed" and we would play get close, and i could smell the vodka on her breath but never met her lips, but me being dumb said "hey I have to go pee" she then told me where the bathroom was. Now this house was a fucking maze on a large country lot so after 8 minutes of being lost I returned and asked her to escort me and when I came back I found douche McDoucheness kissing the cute girl and I mean KISSING and after hearing how he took advantage of drunk girls a lot, I was mad. I couldn't stop him though because I didn't want to seem lame and a bitch, so I exacted my revenge. I knew exactly where his shoes were and he was so proud of them, so I took them outside and I pissed in them, and forced myself to puke, leaving a milky pink awful smelling mess on and in the shoes, so I and dipped them in the lake to give them a nice rinse but leaving some grossness.I returned them to the door like nothing ever happen. I left about an hour later with my cousin and I don't know what happened to those shoes.

 

TL;DR: I liked this sweet girl and a douchey guy took advantage of her drunkenness and made out with her like he did with many girls. So I pissed, and puked in his expensive shoes.

 

hahaha this story is awesome. good work. wish we knew if he noticed/what happened afterwords.

 

 

not a confession, but i just need to bitch for a second.

 

was in line to board a train at penn station, and at the front of the line they were randomly checking bags with about 6 cops and 2 dogs on the scene. i freaked out and decided to ditch my weed. the second it hit the trash, they opened the gates directly next to us where a single attendant was there to take my ticket.

 

FUUUUUUCK.

that fucking suuuuucks. how much did you ditch?

Okay I have a kinda funny confession, but I think I may have told it do you guys.

Did I tell you the drunk shoe story?

 

color me interested

 

 

also,

legit lol at this:

 

 (Had my Shaq Pogs for luck)

Tooooooo many. I love great album closers.

The World Is A Beautiful Place & I Am No Longer Afraid To Die - Getting Sodas from Whenever, If Ever

As Cities Burn – Timothy from Come Now Sleep

mewithoutYou – All Circles from Ten Stories

mewithoutYou – In a Sweater Poorly Knit from Brother, Sister

Neutral Milk Hotel – Two-Headed Boy pt. 2 from In the Aeroplane over the Sea

Caspian - Sycamore from Tertia

Pianos Become the Teeth – I'll Get By from The Lack Long After

The Chariot – Cheek. from One Wing

La Dispute – You and I in Unison from Wildlife

Godspeed You! Black Emperor – Providence from F#A# Infinity (although it's only the 3rd track...)

Defeater – Cowardice from Travels

Anathallo – Kasa No Hone from Floating World

Bright Eyes – Road to Joy from I'm Wide Awake It's Morning

David Bazan – In Stitches from Curse Your Branches

Cloud Cult – There's So Much Energy in Us from Light Chasers

Birds In Row – Lovers Have Their Say from You, Me, and the Violence

Touche Amore – Amends from Parting the Sea Between Brightness and Me

This Will Destroy You – Burial On the Presidio Banks from S/T

 

and i dont even know if anyone knows this band, but this is an awesome closer, and one of my favorite songs of all time:

Endless Mike and the Beagle Club – Mr. Millers Opus from  The Husky Tenor

I laughed so hard at

Anathallo - Hanaasdfhnsoidhfosihf

damnit. so bummed i missed this

Sweet deal!

As irrational as it is, wish ACB would get back together. Side projects are still cool though.

agreed. Haven't been lucky enough to catch them on a reunion show yet. wish it would be a real reunion though.

really? the intro guitar parts sound eerily similar. maybe its just me though. similar picking pattern too. just in a different key. I wasn't trying to say they ripped off TBS, just that it was similar.

here ya go http://www.mediafire.com/?mueky37q2gv91l1

I am so excited to spin this. gonna try and wait and have first listen be on vinyl.

Not as easy as it sounds when you're as inept with computers as I am.

I got you dawg. i can reverse them for you and upload in a few minutes

Wasnt too keen on Banshee at first listen, but its growing on me. Love that video with Jason explaining it. Such a wellspoken and articulate guy.

Agreed on the Wolves in the Throne Room rec.

this song is fucking crushing

this is damn good. can't wait to get my PO in.

also, my friend pointed this out the other night and now what has been heard cannot be unheard...

"The Night I Drove Alone" = "MakeDamnSure" by TBS.

Hey, thanks. I don't really ever know what to say when people say stuff like that, but thanks. It's always wonderful to hear words of encouragement.

 

And here's some more news: The endocrinologist called and after getting a letter form my old therapist, he prescribed a low dose of estradiol, and I'm officially on the two main medications. I did a double dose of the first one because I'm supposed to take two .5mg pills a day, but got them in the evening and I sure as hell didn't want to be stuck with a stray pill that didn't have a mate at the end of this one, so yeah.

 

Now, I've never been high (outside of getting a munchies inducing contact high at a less than jake show), but a few minutes after I took it, I was just overwhelmed by this sense of pure happiness. The only things this was comparable to was the birth of my child and my wedding night.

 

This is it, folks. I'm on my way.

that is fucking awesome! Super happy for you. Sending positive vibes your way and hope things continue to go well.

also, I hope that post makes sense. Sorry im pretty drunk, and rambling.

Oh, hey, guess who was essentially told they have to start all over with therapy and guess who's former endocrinologist was planning on putting me on a regimen that would have done nothing because it would've been missing a key element of it for God only knows how long? And guess who, despite giving the office contact numbers to get said records, was told the office had none of the records they needed?

 

She has two opposable thumbs, the wrong hormones and Advice Dog as her avatar.

 

I can't keep doing this shit. I need to just get over it and just try to be normal. Oh yeah, my wife will probably leave me because I'll continue being a waste of space. Fuck.

I know you posted more recently than this and things seem to be going better, but I just wanted to share a few words here. You are not a waste of space, and you definitely DO NOT need to just get over it and try to be normal (what ever the fuck "normal" means... I think what is deemed "normal" in our society is often way more fucked up than what gets deemed to be outside of normal). You can do this! One of my close friends came out as being Trans about a year ago to me and a mutual good friend of ours, and since then she's come out publicly, and although she's definitely had some rough patches and its been hard times going through it with her, its amazing to see her start to transition into being comfortable in her own skin and being herself and seeing the positive effect that has had on her emotional wellbeing. So yeah, I wish you all the best. I am extremely glad to hear you're further along in the journey, with starting anti-androgens and such! I hope things continue to move a positive direction for you. Your bravery and strength is admirable.

Oh, I love Sunn too. I just thought this was hilarious and didnt have anywhere else to post it where people might actually get it

Dank Stank Lathe Cut 7" - One day only pressing (april 1, 2013) - Rumored to be apx 100 copies.

all it is brush your teeth (or maybe it's brush your teeth, again... I cant remember) sped up 100%, but yeah, if you really want a complete collection, this exists. I think I saw them (Broken World Media) say that there ended up being like 100 or so of these cut.

im digging this a lot. I liked Hawkboy a lot, but I agree that this is the best stuff since ACB

He's a real big fan of theirs

 

for reference:

 

used to have this. the artwork is fucking rad. Good luck in your search!

fuck hopes