Sad Heart

The new Slow Seasons song sounds fucking killer. (Stream in link.) Preordered the fuck out of it. http://ridingeasyrecords.com/product/slow-season-mountains-vinyl/

I would be a mindless drone, going on with no meaning.

I don't. It's on my wish list though. I got an email of amazon daily deals, and Firefly was on it, so I pounced.

I wish I could say that everyone used this method, but sadly they don't. A fair amount of people are shallow, and / or rude. I wish people had the common courtesy to just tell someone after a first date "hey, I think you a great person, but I just didn't feel that spark", and I wish you all the best. Thank you for the lovely evening". That's just wishful thinking on my part. Being fairly introverted I had to really push myself to be social, especially while I was living in Brooklyn two years ago. It was rough, really rough. I know how to socialize with people just fine, it's the fact that I don't really want to. What I've learned over the past 10 years of meeting girls, hooking up, putting myself out there is this, I don't really need everyone to like me, neither do I want to. When you go on these just be yourself. I know that is corny as fuck, but really, be yourself. That way you eliminate that whole 'what did I do' factor. You could look back on that date through a specator's eyes and say "yeah, I did fine". I use to take it personally when I met a girl I really liked, and she didn't feel the same. But then I take her persepctive and think should I really take it personally that just because they like me, I should like them? No. It's not fair. Do I wish they did? Fuck yeah I do. I've met a large handful of girls over the past decade that I thought I could be more than friends with, and they just weren't on the same level, or I drunkenly took them home, and they never talked to me again; ironically the ladder was more insulting. I'm rambling... Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, be socialable in dosses, be yourself, do it in stride, and don't get discouraged. There were so many times where I wanted to say fuck it, and be done, and I still have to tell myself everyday that I need to work on my state of mind, and give a shit, but that ironic "it'll be worth it" moment really is worth it. Shes out there, and sifting through the countless boring people, and endless banter, mindless second guessing yourself, it really is worth it. As far as throwing out sexy vibes, I would only really do that if it feels right. Unless you're at that low point in your life, like 1 year for me after a long term train wreck, where you fuck anything that moves, don't think about it. Let the sexual, emotional connection come naturally. I try to think of it like just hanging out with your best friend (on a first date). Be yourself and don't hold back (within reason - don't be an asshole), so she can get a feel of who you really are. Sometimes they will hate you, and sometimes they won't. I remember taking this girl to the Charleston in BKa couple years back, and I talked her fucking head off, all about music. I would talk about my favorite artists, albums, songs, lyrics, verse, notes, influences, how music used so much of your brain, how it related and influences everything, how music is what life is all about. I must have talked for 3 hours, and fuck me if she didn't listen to every word. I don't even remember if she even really said anything, and I honestly think it's the most I've ever talked in that type of situatution. I never ended up going out with her again, didn't even really feel anything, but god damn that was one of the best moments, not dates, but moments I've ever had. I poured my heard out to this girl about what I truly love and live for, and she listened to every word. We might have not really connected, but she was polite, and appreciated what I had to say. I'll cherish that memory, even if it didn't lead to another date... Forever rambling... I think we can't generalize anything about women, especially when it's something about what they're thinking. I sure hope they don't all think at the end of the date that we want sex, or are just going on the date to get laid. There are more points on the spectrum than that, but you never know, what they think unless you ask. Seriously, just be ballsy on your next date and ask them where they expect this date to go. Obviously, don't sound like a dick when you say, but meaningfully ask them. Then you both know the expectations, and you mellow out A LOT. It takes so much tension off the table if youopen up, and end up being on the same page. It's a whole new perspective. In short, please sift through all the endless, mindless bullshit and experience life. It is really shitty at times, but the few great moments you get out of it, fuck they are worth it. It might not seem like it, but it is. Just keep proper perspective, and make a great playlist for your life. And no, you're not unworthy, so fuck even thinking that. Take the positive out of it, and think about how you didn't waste anymore time with someone that wasn't on the same page as you, and didn't connect with you. As Alice Cooper woild say "You're worthy, you're worthy. Get up."

Just bought Firefly on bluray for $15. FUCK. YES.

Oh, Aubrey. I'm downloading Life After Beth right now. Pretty stoked to watch it.

How I always looked it is that there are so many different personalities out there. As stereotypical, mediocre, and lame most people seem, there are those people that aren't sp "textbook" once you get to know them. And once you do so, if your personalities don't match, don't tale it personally. Considering how many people live on this planet, the amount of thoughts, opinions, ideas, perspectives, etc. that one person could have, the infite combinations, don't take it personally if who you are doesn't mesh with another. I use to get so hung up over that, especially with girls who I had interest in, but never be bitter towards someone because of it. What I like to keep in mind it to be polite, be civil, be up front, and if it's the other way around don't take it personally. Respect the other person if they are honest with you (hopefully they are civil and direct), and move on. It's hard to keep your head above water and stay optimistic, while thinking to yourself "how can I not take it personally?", and that's easy; don't. I'm a pretty introverted person myself, but I still try to keep all this in mind, especially in my later years, post teen drama. Just keep a positive attitude, stay optimistic, meet as many people as you can. And hopefully you'll stay optimistic long enough to meet that girl that makes you laugh ... and has basdass taste in music.

Hahahhhahaha.

SO I finally took the time to lay out my Caspian collection. Only took me about 3 hours hahahha. At least Caspian regrammed it and Philip is following me now. I told him to play FT next time they tour.

Not only is Philip following me now, but they regrammed me. Awesome.

Oh, damn, that girl dumped Mattie. How could she?! THAT'S MATTIE McKIBBEN!!! GIrl outta her mind.

That's awesome. I relate to Sadie a lot, since she is a giant asshole.

Unfortunately I had way too much shit to do (packing and all that). How was it?! Like you even need to answer... I know it was amazing.

Thanks. : ) And just keep watching. Hahahha. Does it make you feel better if I just watched every episode of Awkward and hate-loved it? Haha.

So glad to hear that! Thanks for letting me know!

Hahahahahahaha thanks!

I'm back, guys. Been MIA for a bit getting settled in Seattle (aka - being lazy as fuck). Here are a few photos of my set up:

Just moved into my new Seattle apartment. Wish I had time to hang all my screen prints and decorate more, but here is my current set-up: Most of my equipment is listed in my signature. For anyone wondering, the TV is 55".

Looking for a copy of the Devil's Night DVD feat. The Greenhornes, the Black Belles, and Elvira. I has misplaced my copy in my move and would love to replace it. It is the DVD that was part of the Third Man Records Vault packge # 10 that came with The Raconteurs Live At Third Man (black/blue split). Hit me up if you have a copy! Thanks!

I went for the haze. Hoping the sound holds up. We shall see. Was tempted to get the test, but after spending $150 on ITTCT stuff, I decided to hold off. I'm probably grab the plain ole black too later at some point.

Ok. Maybe the bitching for a CD within the states for $8 is justified. Holy dick.

I don't know why you guys are bitching about shipping. If you live internationally you need to take into account the shipping fees and import taxes. That stuff adds up. I mailed a record last week to Belgium and the dude had to pay 36€ import fee on a $125 record. It sucks, but we or the distributor don't make those fees. Either buy it or don't. Or move to America. Even though you have to get butt fucked by shipping, you probably save a fuck ton cause EU as a whole has a ton of better music (at least in my opinion - post rock and what not). I pay a ton for shipping since I'm ordering overseas a lot. Nature of the beast.

What's a toriamos?