casey

Dammit, when they announced the represses of these, I knew they'd save the best (Tennessee & TMFW) for last. Dammit.

I'm really going to try to make it up there on the 28th.

Try it with your mother's picture. On second thought pictures of your mother sucking multiple dicks of various races at once probably already exist so no need for photoshop.

Backed. I had several opportunities to go to Krazy Fest and was always like, "eh, I'll do it next year." I should start punching myself anytime I say that because apparently I have some gypsy power to end shit merely by having that thought. The Dismemberment Plan broke up after I said that one time. Fuck me.

Summertime usually prompts me to pull out old favorites...The mix of these may seem kind of eclectic, but they all come from vastly different eras in my life. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club--Howl Explosions in the Sky--The Earth is not a Cold Dead Place Saves the Day--Stay What You Are Codeseven--Dancing Echoes/Dead Sounds Nirvana--Incesticide

Heritage Connection is better. I like Prussian Blue's music but they are pagans. Heritage Connection are Christians. You know what band I like? They're pretty good.

was this after you ran the red vinyl off your expedit? Nice.

Looks like you guys have the 1st ammendment/ Nazis are assholes angle covered, so I'll just say I really hope that yokel in the top right corner of that radio show ad is the dude posting here. He has "broadcasting live from my mom's trailer" written all over him. Also, top notch photoshop skillz.

It bugs me how often they change how many downloads you get for what you pay, but they added sub-pop so i'm not too pissed.

+ Been clean 1 week + My wife and I are kind of talking again - No job yet

Friday as in tonight? I might...

Oh man, I seriously could have doubled my collection for what I've spent in the last two months. I haven't even played a record in a month. I definitely don't have a problem staying away from the people and places because the places are shady as fuck and I have nothing besides getting high in common with the people. I loved getting high by myself though, and there's no getting rid of that guy. I think the hardest part right now is facing the repercussions of everything. It's a lot of guilt, but running away is what I did before and I know how that works out.

So, it's been about two months since I've posted on here. Some of you have checked in on me, and I am very appreciative. Some of you that I've come to be friends with know my situation, and even if you don't I'll fill you in. I've struggled with addiction since I was 15, my first real serious drug habit was at 18 when I started using methamphetamine. That lasted about a year and then I was clean for a year before I started using heroin. After about eight months of that, I just kind of dabbled around and didn't have a serious problem until I went through a bad break-up at 23 and started using meth and heroin at the same time. I had been clean for about four years until mid-March of this year when I did some coke while drunk one night, thinking I'd never had a coke problem, so it shouldn't be a problem. Well, the coke wasn't, but I was super-tired the next day, and I figured there was one surefire way to fix that. Enter the meth again. A little about my addiction...My habits usually don't last long, but they are about as intense as you can imagine and they end with complete destitution. For a while my wife was helping me seek professional help. I entered a hospital for a 5 day detox and was supposed to go straight from there to a 30-day inpatient facility. Well, there was a snafu with my insurance and I had to go home after one night in detox. Surprisingly enough, I managed to stay clean for four days, but I had a fight with my wife and she wouldn't talk to me on our anniversary, so I picked up. I eventually got into an outpatient rehab program. I went to the first group high, but still left with a clarity and conviction I had not felt since I started using again. I didn't want to use, but I had a small bit left, so I did anyway. To keep a long story less long, I had the cops called on me twice that night--by my wife and my mom--unbeknownst to each other. The second time, I had my car searched and miraculously got away without them finding anything. This was Thursday. On Sunday I realized that I was on track to, at the very least, get arrested; possibly even die. I had started speedballing again, and that is just not a good idea. So I haven't used today or yesterday and was getting my mind back and thinking I was on the right track... I had been on leave from my job because I came clean to them that I needed help, and they were supportive at first, but after my wife called the cops on me, she told them about it (we both lived and worked at the same place). Today they fired me. So now, I've definitely lost my job, my home, and my kids (at least temporarily) and possibly my marriage. My wife says she doesn't know if she can be with me, which I understand, but that the kids need a father and she wouldn't stand in the way of that as long as I'm clean. So, how do I do that? I know there were a few people on here awhile back that had addiction problems. How do you stay clean? I have 5 more weeks in my rehab program, and I intend to finish them. I had the opportunity to use today, and I didn't, even though I've never wanted to more in my life. I guess that's why I'm posting this. I need the snarky comments from Bobby, et al; I need the backpatting from Internet friends. Even if this gets no responses, I need to get back into things that I did when I was clean, remind myself that there is a world outside of shady duplexes and late-night parking lots.

Holy shit, that's awesome man. Congrats.

I went to four stores and none got the Hold Steady. All of them had copious copies of Kicking Television, though.

I got: 7"s Elvis Costello: Live @ Hollywood High Rolling Stones: Plunder My Soul Ted Leo: The Oldest House Built to Spill: Water Sleepers John Lennon: Singles Collection 12"s Modest Mouse: Moon & Antarctica Neko Case: Middle Cyclone (Clear) Really wanted some edition of Mastodon: Blood Mountain, but I've had a copy before and never listened to it. I did wish I had $80 to throw down on the Wilco box. Other than that, no big disappointments.

Rolling Stones 7" Ted Leo 7" Moon & Antarctica

Oh man, I did not know that. I will definitely check them out.

Boggle = OK Scrabble = Pretty Cool Scattergories = Seriously Fucking Cool

Ryan is good. As is sleepy.

Found them at a small used record store near my old job, they had a 180g You Fail me on black 10 bucks and I pushed it off forever and when I was finally gonna get it, it was gone...but I got lucky with those Ted Leo records. And now I own that copy of Tyranny.