maneatingcow

It's soooo nice to wear just a T and jeans. I just want to be clear about this. Is that a Fuck Bitches Get Money tattoo? I haven't quite figured out the whole spoiler thing so the last half of that question needs to be highlighted to be seen.

I'm always overwhelmed with tracking down an artist. I've wanted to come up with a couple ideas for a tattoo and then go to an artist for their input / improvements. On an unrelated topic, FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I know that I just brought up Micah Schnabel so I just googled around and found a house show hes doing in Madison which is 2ish hours from me. It's a Saturday which is awesome, but I still only have my occupational license. I've abided by the rules pretty strictly, but this is making me want to try and risk it.

The only reason I haven't gotten a tattoo yet is I lack any creativity. I know I'll get song lyrics with and image, but I can never come up with the perfect tattoo. For a while I was going to get a tattoo inspired by Frank Turners Photosynthesis. Lately I've been wanting to go with a Two Cow Garage or Micah Schnabel inspired tattoo. Schnabels song More Drugs is something that is about the perfect song. I'm trying to figure out how I could turn that into a tattoo I want.

I grew up being exactly what my mom wanted. Even until I was 16-17 she was still running my life. Shortly after that I learned to say fuck it and just kind of cut her out of my life. I know I've bashed my family quite a bit today, but don't get me wrong I'd do anything for them. Not really out of love, more out of social protocol.

Pretty much. My mom used to fake dry heaving and have a panic attack when she'd have someone show her their tattoo. I've already said siblings are the worst, so I'll have to say parents are the worstest.

Ha, one of the reasons I've never gotten a tattoo is my mom would always say she'd kill herself if my brother or I ever got a tattoo, or if we dated a girl who had tattoos or dyed her hair. I've reached a point in my life where I don't want to deal with her constant attempts at manipulation and always trying to play the martyr.

Sorry to hear about that. Best of luck. And hope Candice's elbow is doing better. I'll be applying for a Coordinator position at my job this week. I'm kind of curious if they actually opened up the position because of what I wrote in my Annual Self Review. In it I questioned my long term future with the company due to lack of upward mobility in my current position. So I'm cautiously optimistic. It wouldn't be a ton extra money, but it'd help me break the $20 an hour barrier and it'd mean a bit bigger yearly raises. More importantly it puts you in a much better position for Manager job openings down the line. Not sure I'd ever want to become a Manager, but I'd like to put myself in position where it is a possibility.

Unitarian Universalist Church might be what your looking for. Pasted from their site - What Do We Believe about God?Unitarian Universalists have many ways of naming what is sacred. Some believe in a God; some don’t believe in a God. Some believe in a sacred force at work in the world, and call it “love,” “mystery,” “source of all” or “spirit of life.” Unitarian Universalists are agnostic, theist, atheist and everything in between. We are thousands of individuals of all ages, each influenced by our cultures and life experiences to understand “the ground of our being” in our own way. We come together not because we have a shared concept of the divine. Rather we gather knowing that life is richer in community than when we go it alone. We gather to know and be known, to comfort and be comforted, to celebrate the mystery that binds us, each to all. We welcome you in the fullness of your beliefs. Join us in exploring life’s deepest questions in a spiritually diverse, supportive, and challenging community. We are excited to meet you where you are, and see how we can all learn and grow together. I'm most likely not ever going to have kids, but if I did I always figured around age 10-12 I'd start taking my kid/s to a few different churches. I'd like them to explore some different faiths and see if any of them seem like it's right for them.

Siblings are the worst. My brother used to be the person I was closest to on the planet. That was when I was willing to let him try and make me feel like shit. For years I'd just deal with him telling me what a friendless loser I was. I would try and let him know how hard social interaction was for me, how social anxiety really was fucking with my head. He'd always just respond by saying that social anxiety is just stupid. Fair enough, if it was just that he couldn't empathize with me it wouldn't be a big deal. It's the fact that he'd always bring up the fact that I was a "friendless loser". The proverbial straw that broke the camels back was last year when he came to my Ultimate Frisbee game he kept on me about how I was such a "friendless loser". That game is one of the only things I force myself to do on a regular basis that is social so for him to go there and in front of everyone keep on me about how much of a loser I am really was a dick kick. Normally I'll just deal with it, but as I age I realize it's foolish to keep people around who just try to make you feel bad about who you are. I mean I don't dispute the "friendless loser" comment, it's an accurate statement. Doesn't mean it's any less hurtful, or that I should have to deal with someone I am close to calling me that. So now I've stopped dealing with my brother as much as possible. It's tough because I need to keep on his good side because I need to keep him happy enough I can keep seeing my nephew and nieces. Seriously fuck siblings.

Damn, not even sure what to say here. Not really the same thing but I've had an old boss try and tell me I'm Bipolar and need to go get medication for it. I've also got coworkers believing that I'm a sociopath. I only bring this up because I wanted to say that I can say that I can relate to how others opinions (even misguided ones) can alter your self perception and make you start to question who you are. Best of luck with all of this. I may not know you well but you've always seemed like a level headed, all together, person on here.

I'm not the only one. Woohooo.

I wouldn't worry to much about it. However, I'm the only remaining human who hasn't illegally downloaded music yet. I've been wanting to start, but never know where to start. Really all I want to download is stuff I already have on vinyl. I've never backed up my downloads and have had two computers crap out on me and then lost all that music. Now I've been backing stuff up on some old thumb drives I had, which probably aren't the best method, but are better than nothing. I know I should probably backup on a cloud network or get a back hard drive, but I never care enough to go through the effort.

Damn, one of the only records I regret selling was my signed Sara Bareilles - Kaleidascope Heart record.

Always curious, what was it?

I'm an atheist. In my younger days I was much, much more aggressive in my beliefs. In high school we had a Philosophy / Religion class. It was my favorite class ever but I was a fucking asshole in it. There was me who was your in you face atheist and then we had the girl whos nickname was "god girl". Her father was a pastor. We always got along pretty well but in that class we out for each others throats. She would tell us about the Church that she went to in Europe that is known for regenerating peoples limbs, as long as everyone prays hard enough. When homosexuality would come up she was not shy about how much of an abomonation it was and that it was the cause of most of the worlds problems. Basically god is punishing the world for not "ending" homosexuality. She always claimed she believed that the bible should be take literally. In one of our class discussions on homosexuality she overtly stated that she feels that homosexuals should be killed. I blew my lid there. That was where I challenged her to kill me. I told her that "I'll make it easy for you, God is despicable. I've just blasphemed and according to the bible blasphemers should be put to death and stoned by the congregation. So if you loved God you have a duty to kill me. God's a hate filled narcicisst and you obviously don't love him enough to do what he's asking you to do. If you really loved god, and believe the bible should be taken literally you'd try to smite the blasphemer. Basically if you loved god you'd try and kill me." That was the only time in that class that the teacher tried to intervene, but the discussion continued in a slightly more civil tone the next class. These days I'm more in the live and let live camp. I'm still aggressively atheistic, I just don't feel how it is beneficial to try and question everyone at every opportunity. I have been talking with a guy at work lately and it makes me wish I never would have started. His question to me was since I don't believe in god why don't I just kill people whenever they do anything I don't like? I talked about how my not believing in God causes me to live a much more "moral" life. Basically I believe that the greatest goal in life is to leave the world in a slightly better condition when we die. Since there is no heaven the only thing that we have is the Earth we need to do everything we can to make Earth as much like the theoretical heaven. His response was that if there is no god then he'd live life with no morals and would go around killing and stealing and doing anything that feels good. My mind was blown. If someone needs a belief in God to prevent them from murdering I just don't know how to respond.

Makes me feel like a dick that I do have insurance and still refuse to go get some kind of anti anxiety drug. Hopefully you can get something figured out ASAP.

Made my yummy foiled potato packs (potatoes carrots pea pods green beans) tonight and there damn good. So much better on a grill or over a fire though.

Good job on losing weight. You're doing amazing! That sucks, hope it's a quick and easy appointment. Good luck on the new / old job now. Best of luck improving your situation. I'm sure you'll be able to in no time.

Really like the Net Stolen Bases catagory. Tried getting my leagues to switch to that a few years ago when I pushed through changing Average to OBP and Wins to Quality Starts. I like the concept of Saves + Holds as a catagory but I wish there was a way of making a Save worth twice as much as a hold.

Off With Their Head in a few hours. Pretty excited to see them, I've been on a pretty big OWTH kick lately.

Since were looking for shit to talk about. I'm super excited for Micah Schnabels album coming out this year. He released 5 songs from it on Bandcamp and I friggin' love it. He's one of those artist whose lyrics are spot on for me. More Drugs is my new lifes motto in song format. I'm passively aggressive and missunderstood I never claimed, never claimed to be good Theres no such thing as karma or blessing or curse and those that claim to be good their mostly the worst Y'all got any albums your stoked about this year?

I just got through season 1 and am a few episodes into the second season now. It's compelling enough for me to keep half paying attention to it. I just can't justify buying a TV series. If netflix or amazon prime don't get it I don't need to watch it. If I ever found the seasons on dvd cheap enough I'd pick them up and ebay them when done. I would definitely recommend watching the Brit version, but I really love a lot of Brit shows though.

Is the US version nearly as good as the Brit version? I loved the Brit Shameless, but have never seen an episode of the US one. Netflix and Amazon must not have it.

I actually just started watching the show. I love musicals big time, but I'm no Glee(k). I'll watch the 45 minute episode in probably 25 minutes or less because I skip a ton of it. The Sue Sylvester character is pretty hilarious and I like the dynamic they have going with the Kurt character. Plus Brittany is hilarious.