roadmonkey

I'm always makin it rain in front of my computer.

I'm always makin it rain in front of my computer.

Started listening to this... really good stuff. here's $25

Started listening to this... really good stuff. here's $25

Started listening to this... really good stuff. here's $25

Neck 

well not on the first conversation, at least the end of the second or third max.. last you want to do is just be frustrated with internet chat pals that don't go anywhere. You are looking for a date IRL not a MMO Marriage.

Snow - 12 Inches of Snow

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NtILxBszyf8

Snow - 12 Inches of Snow

yea dude.  i definitely get this.  i try to force myself to meet women on weekends, tried online dating, meeting friends' friends, and it all sucks.  i'm at odds with my generation.  girls don't care about a dude who has a job or morals or conviction; they want dudes that emulate mtv reality dudes or androgynous band dudes.
 
madie makes life seem easy.

last bump and i'm done with this 'poor me' bullshit.
 
no more talking about my failed marriage to strangers on the internet, but i feel i've strung you folks on long enough to at least give you this.
 
i'm drinking again tonight. but still no pot and no day drinking. that makes me 2 weeks clean off pot.
 
drank maybe 4 times in the past two weeks, after the kids went to bed during those particularly rough nights.
 
the 'wife' finally came clean tonight via text message, admitted she's been fucking the guy in question ever since 2 nights after she moved out.
 
which will be 2 weeks tomorrow.
 
needless to say i already knew this in my heart, and accepted it a long time ago, but she's continued to lie all this time, and honestly the lies hurt more than the cheating.
 
so many nights of begging for the truth, and her looking me straight in the eyes and telling me her lies were the honest truth.
 
last night she admitted to sleeping with him, but said only once, and only 3 days ago, and i still knew that was bullshit, but appreciated what little breadcrumb of honesty it really was.
 
i visited an attorney today for my initial consultation, which she didn't charge me for.
 
she told me, with whats happening and the information i had at that time, it would be best to wait things out.
 
she sees women do this all the time, and it's usually just them regretting the loss of their early 20s by having kids to early.
 
she compared it to a midlife crisis, and said she's probably just trying to find herself.
 
i felt comfortable with this and went out and spent $35 on white roses and a totally perfect 'for my wife' valentines card that said everything i wanted it to, plus the 'i forgive you, you'll always have a loving home with me and your children if/when you're ready' inside.
 
she spent the entire day today with me and the children. helped me clean. we went out to dinner as a family.
 
i asked her if she would give the kids a bath tonight so i could have a break from that particular ordeal, considering i've been doing literally all the parenting for as long as i can remember.
 
it set her off, she didn't want to, she started yelling uncontrollably in front of the children.
 
i left. went to a friends house down the street. avoided her for a good 2 hours. gave her a chance to do some real parenting and put the kids to bed.
 
even declined her spastic phone calls, much like the phone calls i've so reluctantly been doing to her over the past 2 weeks, that she has in turned denied as well, thinking i was giving her a taste of her own medicine.
 
i came back, made her sit down and listen to me once again tell her what she's done is wrong, and that she still has a chance to fix it.
 
i forgave her for 'fucking him once' (which i never really believed, but you know, take what you can get) and said these things happen and we can work through it.
 
she lied to my face like usual, and even gave me hope that she would think about it tonight, because tomorrow is valentines day and it would be symbolically perfect for her to come back and take that step.
 
as she drove off, i knew she had no real interest in reconsidering and just said it to shut me up so she could leave.
 
about 20 minutes later i got the big huge honest text spilling everything.
 
apparently they care for each other very deeply and she's already considered him her boyfriend.
 
even included that his cock is bigger and the sex is better.
 
(i laughed to myself at that, because she's rather loose after popping out 3 kids and a big cock is exactly what she needs.)
 
i was amazed at how any and all feelings for her immediately vanished upon hearing this.
 
i wasn't angry because i knew, and had known all along, but couldn't prove it and she just kept lying.
 
i'm going to call the attorney tomorrow and go ahead with the divorce.
 
i intend to blast her for adultery and abandonment, and request child support and a decent alimony based on her income.
 
it really all depends on what the attorneys think is the best decision.

i don't want to do this out of anger, i just want it to be handled appropriately and get what i deserve out of it all.
 
not sure how to handle the custody. i'm very conflicted about taking the children from her, esp. out of state.
 
the future for me in saint louis without help doesn't look bright, but i have to consider all options.
 
i was raised without my mother and i know what that did to me, and i've always promised myself not to let my children have to go through that.
 
i guess that's it.
 
thanks for being here for me, guys.
 
your support really has helped me a long, even if it's just words on the internet.
 
i won't pull the thread, because it never got as nasty as the last one, but i'd prefer if it didn't stay active for much longer.
 
thanks again. this community has been real good to me.
 
funny how the internet can effect real lives, considering i normally don't take it very seriously.
 
also sorry for anyone that's found disgust or disappointment from listening to me whine and bitch.

Oh man, I used have the Green Jello Cereal Killer VHS back in the day. Shit was so fucking hilarious. That and old gwar movies.

john henry is currently in production.. gonna be a double LP with a gatefold cover.

Beers and music writing. That's my Friday night. Always. And listening to some records of course. 

Soundtrack needs moar Anthrax:
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[/media]Honestly, I've been on the wall about this movie. I may check it out in 2D though..

Not me. 

IF they left Beer Rev off that list, the list would be meaningless. The ever rotating 3 chalkboard list of tap beers can be overwhelming. i'm always trying great beers that I've never heard of and then I forget what the hell it was. Plus I know I can always grab a bottle of Pliny from their giant cooler selection. Next door, Souley Vegan, serves up some great vegan food, which I am normally against. Their chicken fried tofu is insane and perfect to munch on while drinking beers.
 
Right down the road, Linden Street Brewery is also a good place for beer.

Getting black because it matches the color of my soul.

DUDE! I'm planning a trip to Australia for next winter/spring. I will definitely keep the company in mind. 

i won't even pretend that i haven't shit inside someone's heart. and yet, the divorce is/was amicable. speaking of, it's been just about six months since i was served so my divorce should almost be final
 
divorce party at my house!

Any time a girl has ever tried to check my phone without my consent- we are fucking done.  
There is nothing there that would incriminate me, it's just the simple matter of trust.  If you trust me not to be fucking girls when you're not around, you should at least trust me enough to not be flirting via text or whatever social media the kids are using these days.  The same goes for me, I don't want to see what's on your phone either because I trust you.  Shit was way easier before social media turned everyone into an idiot. 

This is how I feel 90% of the time I come in this thread. 

truth be told, skydiving was fun the one time i did it.. bungee jumping was a hell of a lot more scary. cliff jumping hurt. (i fell slightly on my stomach) from 45ft up. i think the only thing i have to do is base jump, but i'm not suited or have the experience to do that, as much as i'd probably have a blast doing it. don't tell me this doesn't look fun:
 
 
 
also happy birthday!!!!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
.....asshole!

For my birthday weekend celebration last week, I decided to go skydiving in Las Vegas. The company filmed it and gave me the files (for a nominal fee)
 
Here's what happened.